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Showing posts with label bonjour tristesse. Show all posts

April 26, 2013

LIKE TALKING TO A FRIEND

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It has been seven weeks since my last entry on this blog. I think even for an unreliable and infrequent blogger like me, that was a long absence. Then again, everything seems so different now that seven weeks sound way too short. To begin with something funny, I look very different, I haven't found the interest in styling my hair lately and I wear glasses on a day to day basis now as I am too lazy for contact lenses. Asim has become very unruly, the puberty rebellions of such a huge dog can be a bit straining from time to time. All at once everyday struggles have become much more complicated, the move, a new work, somehow all that was much more challenging this time. And right now my family is saying a very long and painful final good bye to my Aunt . It's not an unexpected good bye, we all knew that she would leave us much too soon for her time, but you can never truly be prepared for something like that, I guess.

So far this year has made me lose my lightness, something that always was a big part of the pictures I made for this blog. I have shot six films since I last been on here, but I don't like them. I never even thought like that about my photos before, I just took them out of the moment, out of the mood I was in and that was all. It was all a learning experience, to see the outcome and post it on here. Now I just don't like what I see, or feel like it looks like stuff I have done a million times before in the past, just better. I have missed blogging very much, much more than I would have thought. Still I suddenly feel a bit unfamiliar with this place...I don't even know what I'm writing about here, I'm not good with words.

I received many thoughtful mails from you  and it is a lovely but unexpected surprise that quite a few new people decided to join this blog as a reader without me even updating once.  I just thought I check in today and tell you where I am at the moment.